A human with too much passionI'm working hard,
kicking ass,
and staying humble.
My school had a festival in celebration for Holi, an Indian holiday celebrating spring amongst other things, it was actually really interesting. I’ve always had an affliction for body colorings. And everyone looked so happy just being there.
On a slightly more personal update, I hope this weekend goes well. I am signing my lease today for our apartment/house (it’s a duplex really but I’m not fond of that word) but at least I won’t be homeless. Lovely Bridgette is coming here and we are going to take some pictures. I’m going to a talent show tonight. Also I have a rough week ahead of me.
And besides that, I really just want to help others (and myself) feel better.
Morning
When we fall asleep,
My arms wrap around your waist,
Lips against your back.
But I promise this,
I won’t go my whole life telling you I don’t need,
I’ll tell you now,
I guess like I should have told you then,
The Girl I Will Marry
She will be the type of girl who has a laugh like an entire goddamn symphony,
She would have a library bigger than mine and she’ll want to combine them when we move in and we could laugh about we have doubles of all our books,
She’ll love drinking, because I need someone who looks in hazy excited eyes and drag me to the dance floor,
She will take my jokes and one up them but never keep score,
She would screw me like a fire-eyed animal with unending passion,
She won’t mind the mornings I wake up early but refuse to leave the bed,
She’d sing with me the car and let me drive because she knows how happy it makes me even if I’m not as good as her.
She will understand my references to obscure things,
And we could spend all night listening to music,
But honestly,
If she knew my coffee order and kissed me that would be enough for now.
Actually I’m more like a human that doesn’t categorize themselves into a gender binary.
Friends
And I say the words,
Over and over again,
“I’m happy for you.”
My progressive breakdown,
Come watch my cells forget their purpose,
Stopping mid sentence,
Screaming skeletal structure,
Braille skin,
Run your fingers down and,
Read this quick escalation of panic.
